This weekend was the first time in a long time I didn't feel out of place for being my age and not being married.
I went to an event for church with my mother and ran in to great people/friends that I grew up with. They are in all different stages of life and even though time passes, they are still the amazing people I knew them as 10 years ago. Now they just have more wisdom and more life experiences to add to my admiration.
Sort of had an epiphany that it's okay to not always do everything correctly or as close to perfection as I would like. No one is judging; doing the best I can is enough.
There is a continual state of awe at how blessed I am. Five years ago I would never have guessed I'd be where I am today, yet I am so blessed to have what I have.
It's okay to feel proud of attending graduate school while working two jobs and maintaining a pretty high GPA while doing so. As my friend with the leather couch once said, "Not everyone can do it so you should acknowledge it as a major achievement." I'm starting to get there.
Thinking about my cousins and their adorable children had me add them to my 'Gratitude List' once again as I'm so grateful to be so close to them, location wise and emotionally.
My mother will forever be my 'go to' person. Even though she is still in constant pain from the effects of having had cancer, she accomplishes so much every day and is very aware of those around her. I fear I may literally die the day she passes as I can't imagine living without her. And yes, I do realize what a gift it is to have such an amazing woman to call mom.
As dysfunctional as my brothers are, I love them. Annoying as that is.
I really really do love Fall and it really is my favorite season, Halloween aside.
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Loved this post- I think you are amazing, and I must say I adore your mom as well! I definitely would not be able to work two jobs, and do so well in school like you! Have a fun time on your cruise. I'm excited to hear about it! Go Vampire Queen!
Feel ya, sister! I mostly grew up in Utah but have lived in SoCal for about 8 years. But, man, I do I feel like an old maid when I go back to Utah! Some of my friends are on their 2nd marriage!!!!
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