A Cheesy Entry

I have quite a few posts to catch up on, but I haven’t felt the creative juices. I have a lot to say, but I want to express it correctly, and make sure I say it in a way that will work for me when I read it in the future.

As for today’s entry….

I worked a grave shift at the hospital Wednesday night, starting at 7:00pm and didn’t get off of work until 1:00pm today, Thursday. I’m not really sure how I stayed awake that long, but it’s amazing how one can push through the 9:00am wall and then get outright giddy and a huge second wind by the afternoon. When I got off work, I knew I was tired, but I also wanted to go to the gym, which is weird and not really possible when I hadn’t slept in over 29 hours

After sleeping for three hours I got up, pulled myself out of my drugged state, and met my dear friend Emily A. for dinner at The Cheesecake Factory (Cheesecake Factory will always remind me of Boston as I had a standing dinner date with my dear friend Nora at the Beacon Hill location). It was so great to meet with Emily, have great food and great conversation with a great friend.

Now that I’m no longer so busy (just tired today) I am realizing how much I value great times and great social times at that. I really do value my friendships and feel very blessed for the few great true ones I have.

After dinner, about three hours later ☺, I drove around enjoying the weather. It was overcast, a breeze in the air, and a strange clarity surrounded me. I absolutely loved the weather tonight. The mountains, dark and present, looming against the shady sky really stood out to me. It hit me that I really loved where I lived, especially tonight.

I love the weather, as unpredictable as it is; I love the mountains, as they always let me know where I am and which way I am facing (bloody missed those things the two years I was back East); and I loved sitting in the Barnes and Noble parking lot, in my car, windows down, enjoying the scenery. After I went in to the B&N, perusing the books and the smell of Starbucks, I was strangely excited to return to outside and the great breeze.

Cheesy, I know. Strange I know. But as I seek out employment relating to my Masters degree, looking anywhere in the country, I realized that if I have to stay where I am for now, I’ll enjoy it.

I have no control over what happens in the future so I need to focus on enjoying what is happening in the now. This works today; maybe not tomorrow, but for now, yes.