Rambling Post #567

I have so many great thoughts while I'm at work, or while I'm decompressing from the day, and would have the best journal ever if my thoughts were automatically transcribed into the computer. Alas, by the time I get home, the creative juices aren't as quick nor witty and it's more of a chore than a pleasure to recreate the thoughts that were once had.

A couple of today's various thoughts:

Having free time on my hands is something I'm still trying to corral and put to good use. The new boss has figured out I may have time to do things so I'm on more committees with more meetings than one should be involved with. My mornings still start at six am but my time usually spent waking up and organizing my ideas, lessons and papers for the little hormonal children are now interrupted with meetings, requests, personal 'chats' and everything and anything else that may occur. I love and appreciate the friends who are the support system. However, they aren't the ones that need to request, have a meet, and a PPI! If they did, I'd be more than willing to pull up a couch and serve some gluten free cupcakes to boot!

So many changes at work have led to about four migraines in the past week. Love being told I'm a leader, and it's a positive thing because people listen to me and come to me for advice and to be the 'spokesperson' and then be told within the same breath that I am intimidating, and aggressive and sort of a 'biatch' (adding the 'a' makes it a little less of a swear word and maybe easier for the family to read). :)

Yes, I'm a leader. Yes I will take charge and speak my mind when I'm asked and when it's appropriate. I do have a filter, usually. I am not a vindictive person, I don't hate people as a general rule, but I will dislike people if they do things that ask for the emotion of dislike. Yes, I've hated before; really hated the ex-fiance for a bit for calling off the wedding and the relationship and my eternal happiness. Also hated the ex-boyfriend for a bit when he left me alone right before back surgery because he couldn't 'handle it'. Actually, I may not have actually hated him, just had really horrid thoughts about him and may have coined the nickname 'jackass' just to be used when referencing he and/or his stupid 'novel'.

I am VERY envious of this girl's writing style and quick wit, as well as her mother's.

I am so excited to decorate for Christmas this year I can hardly contain myself. I didn't decorate last year; it seemed like way too much work. That was such an unusual emotion for me as Christmas is my FAVORITE holiday so to not care is proof how exhausted I was last year at this time.

Had a nightmare about my mom last night. Makes me cry to even mention it. I've said it before, and I think my cousins and aunts/uncles don't think I'm serious, but when it is time, I WILL EITHER BE VERY CLOSE BEHIND OR WILL MOVE IN WITH SOMEONE FROM THE CHILD SIDE. Just get ready peeps. I am not kidding!

Okay, that's enough rambling for today.