Focus and Filter

Had the worst experience tonight of NOT 'focusing and filtering'.

When I was in my massive pain before back surgery, pinched sciatic nerve for six months, my patience and thought process was minimal to none. You try having patience and thinking before you speak when you are in pain that is compared to labor for six months straight. Not a good time.

But I digress. As I neared the time of my surgery, I really just said whatever I thought (yeah, yeah people, pipe down!). One day in the front office, before the first bell had rung, my pain was really bad, and I proceeded to say too loudly, with parents and students within hearing distance, 'Can we not work today? My butt hurts like a mother!"

My dear friend Emily then proceeded to yell at me "J, Focus and Filter!"

It has now become a joke as there are days when I'm really tired, stressed or just bugged that I will say things I really should have thought about first. Well, tonight, at the Target with Emily, was one of them.

I can't share in public yet what I said because even for me it was the worst 'unfilter' I've ever done. I could have said 30 others things that would have been considered not filtering by others, but would have been better than what I said.

To a 17 year old. Who was with the brother. Who, the brother, is a student. In my work place. In 8th grade. Yes, the grade that I am the leader of.

I need to go grovel for forgiveness. And figure out how to not make the news.